i understand that it is hard
to crawl out of that space
that space of normal dreams
average thoughts
and a perfect measure of selflessness
and then blow it all away behind you
to shove it down and finally say
this is what i really want
this
and i know that it’s shocking and you think it’s stupid and it’s probably has more than a perfect portion of selfishness
but this is what i want
inside of me
this is the contents of my soul
and i’m tired of living in that space of pretending that
my dreams are normal
my thoughts are average
and i have a perfect measure of selflessness
it’s just not actually me
just choose what makes you happy.
that single solitary isolated portion of time
it only lasts for a half a second maybe even less if not a quarter
but that was when i realized
we need to be together
you could learn to love me
he said
couldn’t you
he said
of course
she said
you can learn to love anyone if you really set your mind to it
she said
and then there was a pause
but is love really something we should have to learn to do
she said
yes
that was what i intended to
do
say
describe
to you
but see i kind of maybe forgot
i do that sometimes
oftentimes
even the important things
i forget them
a lot
forgive me?
i like the me i am with you
i think it is the me-est me i can ever be
i can only hope you like the you you are with me
i want it to be the you-est you you could ever be
there is something about
being human
and watching another person
in their joy
and the simple fact
that God created us as humans
to share in that joy
only by
seeing
it
i like people who aren’t afraid to be quiet with me.
i want to be a million things for you
i want to be a quiet place
a hope
a turn on your path
a choice
a half
a help
i want to be a sure one
a steady hand
a heart
a capable being
a risk
i want to be a best
a favorite
a hand to hold
a secret spot to hide
a reflection
i want to be a better being
a lover
a worshipper
a composer of all things beautiful
a guide
a safety
a desire
i want to be everything for you
